So I've started this blog and the worry has set in already.... I've been reading a book called, "How to Deal with Emotionally Explosive People". Oddly enough, I am borrowing it to gain a few insights on the anger my daughter experiences at times and how to deal with it, but have found that... ut oh! I'm an emotionally explosive person myself!!!! Ah!!! But I'm the depressed type; not so much the angry type (though not anger-free, to be sure). The worry? Well, you all know bits of my past... Perhaps I've dumped my load into a conversation or two with each of you (sorry). I don't want this blog to become a place where I dump and you attempt to pump me back up. I know this construction project of me is my own. I probably won't go into great detail whatever I'm dealing with but through this blog I am communicating a desire for support and seeking affirmation, insights, tips, things that work for you in like scenarios.
The last week or so I've been soul-searching on musical direction as well as doing some thinking on family issues. I've had bursts of wonderful creativity as I seek clarity. (One song completed, for now! A few more I'm working on! I'll try to find a private way to share it with y'all! I'm so excited about it!) Though I am appreciative of all the ideas, I won't say it has been easy or totally fun. In fact, my latest song idea, "I need to face the music..." might demonstrate the work involved.
Trying on a Bold Color (I've always wanted to do that on a wall in my actual house!)
I take the fluxes in my music and family life seriously. I struggle with direction in great part due to fear. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings; I don't want to disappoint; I don't want to burn any bridges. Likewise, I fear rejection. My latest task involves me not rejecting me; instead, honoring the direction I want to take and being brave enough to go. I cannot hold on to people that make me feel unimportant or uncomfortable. If something isn't working: try to amend, but if it continues to not work, back away. It's okay to back away, withdraw, or redraw the relationships - create a new format to function within.
Question: What situations warrant backing away without making amends?
Would you back away or withdraw from someone who got so angry they didn't talk to you for a week (when ordinarily you communicate nearly daily)?
Can a relationship continue without acceptance of past events?
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